I keep telling my heart that this isn't love.. that I am just having an overdosed affection towards someone I know I can't have.. that I am just challenged because I know 'us' is not possible.. but my heart would answer back.. how I am just in denial even if I know perfectly that I am with out a doubt in love with him.. even if I try to forget and convince myself that I have to do something productive with my life I still can't bring my self to move towards the other direction.. and no matter how hard I try to stop or restrain myself I know I'll continue falling into this bottomless pit of darkness created by me.. even with the acceptance that you will never.. not even in my dreams.. you will never be mine..