I chose to follow my heart,

Even though I have no idea of how this will turn out,

But this is better,

At least I know exactly where I want to go,

And that is somewhere near you.

With you.

Loving you makes me feel like I'm hugging a cactus

The tighter I hold on the more I hurt

Backstreet Boys - I Promise you (Lyrics)

This guy who has a smile brighter than sunshine.. There is no doubt that he is born to steal a lot of hearts.. Being the weak hearted that I am.. Eventually he even stole mine.. I was amaze when I woke up one day feeling the need to love him.. With the promise of everyday.. Even with all the bumps on the road.. It will definitely be a lovely day.. This guy.. Who is too innocent to even be aware of the power that he has on me.. This guy is the reason of my stirred up emotions.. Even if I am experiencing a lot of pain.. There is no doubt that this guy.. With just one smile.. Could make me feel like it is a start of a brand new day full of hope.. He's the only one who made me feel that way.. That's why even with all the terrible pang in my heart.. I will continue loving this guy..

This girl.. This weak hearted girl.. Will only look up to your blinding smile.. With no certainties of what will happen..  I'd still love you with all my heart..

I remember the first time I laid my eyes on you..

It is definitely a memory I will take with me in my next life time..

I remember the first time I noticed how your eyes wrinkles when you smile..

It reminds me of a newly born kitten..

I remember the first time I was captivated by your smile..

Ever since that day I become addicted to it..

I remember how I realized how this fine man in front of me is perfect..

From then on I never laid eyes on anyone else..

Do you remember our first meeting?

Do you remember when my eyes wrinkled the second time you glanced at my direction?

Do you remember how I would automatically curve my lips to a smile every time you smile?

Do you remember the day when in my eyes you stood at the sideways perfectly?

It hurts knowing that my precious memories are just an everyday, usual event for you..

It hurts knowing that these normal things for you are moments I will never forget..

I keep telling my heart that this isn't love.. that I am just having an overdosed affection towards someone I know I can't have.. that I am just challenged because I know 'us' is not possible.. but my heart would answer back.. how I am just in denial even if I know perfectly that I am with out a doubt in love with him.. even if I try to forget and convince myself that I have to do something productive with my life I still can't bring my self to move towards the other direction.. and no matter how hard I try to stop or restrain myself I know I'll continue falling into this bottomless pit of darkness created by me.. even with the acceptance that you will never.. not even in my dreams.. you will never be mine..

What if

It is you

Who would always love how I look no matter what hairstyle I do

What if

It is you

Who would always think that my eyes are the prettiest

What if

It is you

Who would die once I smile

What if

It is you

Who would admire every features of my face

What if

It is you

Who would want to kiss me just to be able to feel

What if

It is you

Who would be contented if you ever had a chance to hold my hand

What if

It is you

Who would dream of having me in your arms

What if

It is you

Who would dedicate every love song to me

What if

It is you

Who would want to breathe the same air I'm breathing

What if

It is you

Who would do everything to walk the same earth I'm walking on

What if

It is you

Who would memorize my mannerisms

Wouldn't it be easier?

You know why?

Because I will not make you wonder

I will willingly give myself to you

Because I don't want you to have these 'What ifs'

Because you don't deserve that

I Wanna Be With You - Mandy Moore w/ Lyrics

The lyrics speaks for itself. I love you Lee Hyukjae.

If I have my way I'd show up in front of you every single day,
until the day you will begin to notice me,
up to the day that maybe,
just maybe you'd fall for me.
But I can't have it my way....

I guess I'm confusing my heart as well.


You know.....
One of my dreams is to have a bus ride with you,
like those high school lovers would normally do...
I guess I'm so pathetic for dreaming of that
we're not even in high school anymore.....

It's just wonderful how just by thinking about it,
these butterflies in my stomach would flutter...
Even if you are really not interested in me,
it doesn't matter.......
I know I can't make you like me,
and it's ok,
I'll love you still.

Oppa, I'm not going to think anymore, because i want to be near you.

I'll go with the flow, and let pain smack me straight in the face.

This is how much I love you.

Maybe not in this life time, but I'll wait.

For 'us'

I'll see you at the end of this love sick road, only you and no one else.

Saranghae ♥

“I love you” doesn't really mean that I want you to be mine. In fact, it's another way of saying, “I'm happy to see you happy with someone else even if it's killing me.” So I guess I love you.

I've read this quote in a fic, it hit home. This is exactly how I feel, how I know I would be forever. Eunhyuk-ah no matter what happens, I will still love you, I will only look at you, forever. All I want is to see you happy, even if it's not with me, just as long as you are happy, then I will be happy as well.

This person isn't getting any younger,

and I am afraid that before I could even have

the chance he is already tied to someone else.

It was like this person is shining so bright,

that I don't know how much my eyes can take the sight of him,

however,

I'd rather my eyes hurt.

To not look at him is something I can't do.

But I can't and there's no use running away anymore.

Because I seriously Love YOU

Lee Hyukjae

Yes, I lost my SANITY and RATIONALE.

Since I fell for you I accepted that I will be forever alone.

I don't know why, but for me it's not something to be sad about.

I consider it as one of the so many perks of falling in love with you.

I'd rather be forever alone than to spend a lifetime with somebody else other than you.

To be in love with Lee Hyukjae, there is nothing more I wish to do.

I kept on smiling unconsciously,

knowing that I will have you in my heart forever.

I could never pretend that you weren't real.

I could never hide what my heart wanted to feel.

I want to be the 'worth it' girl for you.

The one who will always be by your side and will never leave you.

Even though I know I don't stand a chance.

But I am just being true to my heart.

With its every rapid beating that I ignored.

I can't do anything about this.

I can't move on because i can't leave my heart stuck in that moment.

I honestly can't leave because I know this is forever.

I wonder why people call you the least attractive member when everytime I look at you all I can see is perfection, I mean, do you even know how many girls would give up almost anything just to have a minute with you? I, I would've given everything just for you to glance at me. I would've given everything just to be the reason for your smile. I would've given everything for you to know that I exist.



I just hope that everytime you feel inferior, and you doubt your appearance, try to remember us jewels, how much we crave for your infamous gummy smile, and how we would always and forever think that Lee Hyukjae is a perfect guy.



In all honesty, Eunhyuk-ah, if you could only see how I look at you through my eyes, you would be amaze of how perfect you appear in front of me. You are perfection for me, that I can't look at any other guys the way I look at you, I can't even see any other guys anymore, because it's only you, it's always you, you're the only one that I see clearly.



And you should know, it's not because of your biceps, triceps, chest and abs that I fell in love with you. Long before you had those I am already head over heels for you. I guess you have a way of stealing hearts and before I know it you already had mine.



Eunhyuk-ah, it's really hard to live because you stole my heart, but you know what? I don't want it back, keep it, do anything you want with it, play with it, throw it, ignore it, I don't care. All I know is that I only want you to have it and not anyone else, because the day I fell in love with you, I told myself that I exist for this person, I only exist for you, no exaggerations.



I still won't ask for anything in return, just let me love you like this. Loving you unconditionally is painful and hard, but it's still enough of a reason for me to keep going. Because it's you and nobody else. Because I love you.



I love you.

Time spent walking through memories-Eunhyuk

Time spent walking through memories-Eunhyuk

Did I mention I love this guy so much?

I really do ^^

And although I know that my chances with him are low

I just couldn't bring myself to believe

I love him whole heartedly

That I am willing to be single forever -and I'm dead serious-

I just love him so much

I love him more than my life

and it hurts a lot

but loving him is the most wonderful feeling I ever felt

that alone is enough of a reason for me to keep going



I love you Lee Hyukjae

I wish you knew

I would've given anything just to catch a glimpse of you

just to hold your hand even just for a second

I would be the happiest

I'm not asking you to love me in return

All I want is for you to know what I feel

But it sucks that you're miles apart

And I can't properly confess

And here I am

in front of my computer

Typing my heart out

Because that's all I can do

Because I could never be with you

But still

I love you



I love you





I love you like it is the only thing I know

I love you

I wanted so bad to tell you how I feel, if only there is a chance.

I love you so much, I want you so bad.

But I can't have you

no



not even in my dreams

I Love YOU

I love you,

 So much.

 It keeps me alive yet it's tearing me down.

 I love you,

 That's all i know,

 Ever since i started loving you i forgot about everything else.

 Do you even know how hard it is to wake up everyday knowing that you can't be mine?

 This is completely hard for me, to face everyday life knowing that you wouldn't know about me.

 Boy if you only knew how my feelings could drown you.

 It's scary and unhealthy,

 But i love you.

 I keep hurting myself because i chose to love you even if i know i don't have a chance for you to love me back.

 But that is just how stupid i am.

 I’m stupid like this,

 I am no where near sane.

 I don't even know what is being sane is all about.

 All i know is you,

 And this feelings i have for you.

 I love you so much that the thought of moving on is already killing me.

 I know i can't stop loving you,

 And this would go on for eternity,

 Coz it's you.

 It has always been you,

 But you wouldn't know.

 You're clueless.

 And I'm sick,

 Not physically though,

 But there is only this thin line separating me from rationality and sanity.

  I can't let go,

 I can't let go of something that never existed.

 So this will be forever,

 The pain and the hurt will be forever.

 I'll continue loving you like this.

 Because it's you,

 And nobody else.